Possessed by Emotion
You’re alive to enjoy your life through the senses, to be in your body, free of unhappiness. Jealousy, resentment, hate, guilt, anger – all the negative emotions – have no body. They’re very unhappy. They’re looking for somebody to possess, always endeavouring to find some body – yours. All unhappiness is a possession by some negative emotion that has no body. To be free of unhappiness is to not have negative emotions possessing your body.
Do you enjoy being jealous? Do you enjoy being hateful? Do you enjoy being moody, sad, sorrowful? Do you really enjoy that? And the answer is: ‘No, I don’t. Not in truth.’ Sorrow enjoys being sorrowful. Hate enjoys being hate. Excitement enjoys being excited. But they are not what I am. I am nothing - intelligence - in a sensory body, with a beautiful earth around me. And there are people around me I can speak to and woman I can make love to and I’ve got food I can eat, three times a day. My sensory existence is the most beautiful thing to me.
Will I ruin it with arguments? Will I ruin our sensory life together with emotional demands, with my feelings, which are always negative, always trying to possess me? I don’t get possessed if I say, ‘No, I will not give in to my feelings anymore. I won’t have it! I am in my senses in my body and I won’t have the feelings.‘
Will the feelings be recycled and come back again if they are suppressed? Yes, unless I know what I am doing. When I don’t give in to the feeling of unhappiness, I am intelligent. Negative feelings are unintelligent. They’re clever and they’re cunning, but not intelligent. Because I am intelligent, nothing can enter me. I have the upper hand because I know what I’m doing.
The Testing