23 JANUARY 1993

Being and self; looking for the good; right action – Woman must be mastered by man who knows what he is doing: demonstration from letter – Jade speaks to woman on position and place of love in dealing with man – Are you in your place? Situation of man and woman – Going into Me: into this place, abandoning position, this will strengthen you

Going into Me: a sacred place, I the subject disappears – Universal truth: giving – Woman: demand and insecurity – Courtesy and politeness – Being true to the situation – I cannot compare my life with another – My place is my life – Getting it right with mum, dad and work – Dying; the primitive sacrifice of life – Glamour: flowing gowns in the ashram

Addresses young girls 10-12yrs: the nature of woman and being true to love – One life: previous life and origins of life on earth – Glamour, ecstasy and equilibrium – Spiritual names and attachment to the master – Children copying adults – East and West: cults – Going into Me: the East, no form, going into silence, gratitude

Going into Me: taking out the world and giving you nothing – Masters: ‘Never Born - Never Died’ video – Heart: broken, organic, human, pure of heart – Situation of life on earth – Come unto Me – Get rid of self and mood – Dishonesty in love; man loving more than one woman – Going into Me: blessed relief of not having to be anything – Getting my life right, guided by situation not feelings – Grace and love – Surrender and knowledge

6 MARCH 1993

All emotion is past; thinking arises from the past – Joy is always now – Why am I emotional? – Facing the living past with honesty – Me, the source of honesty; my self, the troublemaker – My self uniting with Me – Going into Me: looking without and within, where mind gets the power to see straight, coming home

Going into Me: releasing new energy, living the truth – One sense divided into the five senses – Returning home; new vitality in your life – Human mind and divine mind: sense of senses, only one Me – Divine mind: pure intellect, purifying the mind – Self ruins my body – Giving: the solution to every problem – Winning and losing – Right giving with honesty and clarity

Pure intellect, the will, willingness to give – Wasting energy: you know what you should give up – Divine will: harmony in all aspects of life – Wanting and giving, taking and receiving – Aligning with the divine will – One pointedness – All of my life is my God – Giving attracts the divine will – God is giving – Going into Me: object and subject disappear, seeing through the speaker and existence

Being seen, acknowledgement – Facing the fact: I am going to die; seeing through death – I must give what I need – Time to withdraw and time to come forward – Nothing happens until the time is right – Relaxation and visualisation – Studying without unhappiness – Live just one thing you know to be the truth

17 APRIL 1993

Going into Me: through the looking glass, the other side of the mirror – Hell: my self, demons of the underworld, facing myself – What about me? Missing out – Moody one wants to be loved

Youth: gaining experience without accumulating emotion – Answering letters from two women*: woman is love and is responsible for love; woman cannot teach man; woman has to be mastered by man (who knows what he’s doing); woman must be in command of love – Fixed stars: ideas in the mind of God – Suffering is reflecting on self – Acknowledging beauty * see ‘To Woman In Love’ pp 87-93

Going into Me: going into the unknown – Relative reality: the thinker – How do I get rid of the demons in Me? – How to drop tension to the stomach – Stopping thinking: honesty and action – Facing externalised demons

Man and woman living in different houses: giving all or protecting emotions – Ball in the stomach – Dissolving momentum of work with partner – Acknowledgement – Getting the baby out of the bed: everyone in his/her place – Verbal communication needs to match physical lovemaking – Knowing what you don’t want – Physical love and virtue: noble man, the ground and field of love

26 JUNE 1993

Going into Me: looking at nothing – Rightful place of the ego: protector of the natural body – Going into Me: enjoying the egoic breath – Awareness and consciousness – Getting rid of self for the good of the earth

Self always wants to get – Nature of Me is to give – Mystic cross: self being refined and reduced – There is no experience in truth – Looking for experience in lovemaking – Feedback, fulfilment, absence of experience – Woman losing the old experience of love – Body dying with no fuss – Deep dreamless sleep – Going into Me: I am being, no movement of the mind

What is it that instigates the lovemaking act? Man’s biological urge to make love – Men’s excitement in watching sports on TV, breaking attachment – Am I ready to die now? – Fear of nothing; Buddha facing his sexuality and nothing arising – Insomnia, facing what I learned in my relationships – Intimacy and giving everything in partnership – Woman: giving everything in love or being demanding? – Honesty before love – Attachment to dying father

Practising being – Going into Me: crossing the point of the triangle, leaving the world of awareness – Getting your external life right – Beauty and the beast: woman, the beauty of the earth; turning the beast into the noble man – Penile servitude; changing the penis back to the original phallus – Will and willing – Change of life in woman

31 JULY 1993

Giving God what God wants: What do you want? What would I put before all else? – Wanting or being open to relationship – Arguments: what am I hurt about? – Partnership: individual wants and acting in union – Woman putting children before God: not giving in to sentimental love – Man alone: seeking company, knowing why – Two keys to being responsible; first key: I must not judge myself; the can of worms

Taking action – Second key: I must do what I know to be right – What is, is right; is unhappiness right? – Pain without suffering – Where there is not enough love I turn to sex; where is sex demonstrated in your life? – Barry sings a song to love – Three stages of popular songs – What monkeys look like to each other – Man grafted from the original monkey stock

World wide shortage of memory: computers – Emotional memory – Values you are concerned with and real values – I must not love my self – Loving children without indulgence – Go by the practical – Decisions and no choice – Deep dreamless sleep – Absence is the place and stillness is the way – Meditation, being, absence

Facing and going through your particular emotions – Creativity – Going into Me: into this place of absence – Unhappiness and looking into my life – Psychic ability, the occult, glamour and miracles – Are there other lives? – Ageing of the body – Enjoying my life and knowing the purpose of life

18 DECEMBER 1993

Two problems all over the world: cause and effect mind; leaving Me – Explanation of Me – Self consideration, selfishness, feelings – Intelligence: no feelings, looking out of your skin – Going into Me: beginning of freedom and liberation – Who, where and what is Me?

Me: the tenderest, sweetest place – Psychic manifestation: the devil – Giving or indulgence: listening to the sad story – Blindness and deception of scientific mind: Stephen Hawkings’ scientific report – The black hole – Extra terrestrial intelligence – Your brain and sensory universe – Love within reflected without – Going into Me: into the black hole, the moment before the big bang

Catch 22 – Getting rid of the questioner – How you know when he or she loves you – What is getting in the way of love? – The value of self – Can there be joy in getting my life right? – Curiosity: gossip at work – Painful self: telling the sad, sad story – Fear of not having enough to retire on – Reading newspapers – Love and attachment – Woman’s attachment or man’s fear of love? – Pain causing itself more pain – A broken heart – Mystical love and the speaker

Going into Me: looking into Me, the formless, looking with intelligence and with feeling – Consciousness and awareness: in and out of time – Addresses young girls: real wedding vows – Anger with children – Unhappiness in children – Happiness or absence of unhappiness – Honesty and right communication – This teaching, going into Me: two hemispheres of one cosmos – Addresses 8 year old: learning from experience; can you destroy the self