Me, My Self And I
Edited extract from transcript of a seminar in Australia 21 May 2001.
My State and My Condition
Me: So still, so undemanding, unglamorous, uncluttered - so silent. It is a state. What is a state? - Still, enduring, always unchanging. That’s me, inside the body reading these words and speaking them.
A condition is always moving, never still; always wanting, always wishing, hoping, trying. And that’s my self. When I - the only intelligence I’ve got in this body - reflect on this restless self, I have to leave me. And then I’m busy, lost in activity or thought or emotional clamour and demand.
I am the intelligent one in the body, the reflective intelligence. I am that and what I reflect on gives one or the other - me or my self. If I reflect on my wanting and wishing, I get all the activity and changing thoughts. The emotions change all the time when I reflect on my self. When I can reflect on me, I have something inexplicably good - a sense of peace, of nothing moving.
The Space In Me
My self is all in the subconscious. My subconscious is filled with self. But the more the intelligence I am in the body is able to reflect on me (the stillness and silence), the more I enter the subconscious and reclaim the space that my self has occupied. Because self cannot stand intelligence, it yields me space. As I reclaim the ground that my self has occupied for so long, ‘me’ becomes more profound.
Eventually, when I have reclaimed enough of my subconscious, the profundity and peace extends down in me and the whole subconscious becomes me and not my self. There’s no restlessness, no doubt, no fear anymore - they are all in the self’s kingdom - and there’s no reflection necessary, just a simple, natural focus all the time. That’s what it is to realise 'me’.
Statements – III