As You Always Are
An extract from the book 'My Life of Love and Truth’, Chapter 11, IMMORTALITY:
I had realised immortality. Death was a condition of the mind but it was not a fact. I had somehow passed through that condition. And now I was exultant, filled with joy and the knowledge that I was actually one with the life in nature, with every creature and living thing. I was forever, as life was. I was at peace …
On the verandah (at Chilkapita) another spiritual experience overtook me.
An inner voice said, ‘Do you love the Bhagavati?’ I replied, 'I do.’ 'Do you honour her, cherish her, serve her, and forsaking any other, keep yourself wholly unto her?’ 'I do.’ 'Then I unite you as you have always been, as you always will be and as you always are.’
At that time I had not realised that the Bhagavati is the one Woman, the female principle, who is not limited to any one form.
Just after my realisation of immortality I had a vision of a fluffy little brown chicken asleep in the shell of a partly opened egg, while another chicken out of its shell pecked at the ground nearby. I knew the one curled up in the egg was the woman I loved, waiting to awake.
One beautiful, clear starry night I was out walking when I saw a vision of a very beautiful flower opening out from a bud. I had in fact watched this same flower gradually bloom over a period of a week or so in the cantonment garden months before. As the flower opened in the vision, a voice said, 'She is coming. You cannot hold back the birth or the bloom.’
My inner state was due to a climacteric, a fundamental opening, deep inside. And it included the strange ceremony at Chilkapita of being united forever with the Bhagavati, 'as you have always been, as you always will be, as you always are.’ The statement emphasises so well that the love or fulfillment we all search for in our lives is already there, within, behind the searching.
Chilkapita